Okay, so, maybe it actually SUCKS, but I figured I didn’t want to start my blog off with such an offensive title. This first post is basically to introduce myself and explain the purpose.
If I’m being completely honest? I really don’t understand, myself, why I’ve decided to do this. I suppose, in part, it has to do with my recent breakup with a man with whom I fell head over heels in love. When I entered into this relationship, I was so sure it’d be my last. We had already talked about our wedding!! I know, I know.. I’m almost 38 years old. I should have known better– used some common sense– seen the warning signs– listened to my friends– not gone all in.
But, see, I have a defense…
I guess some people would call me naive, gullible, love-struck , or perhaps just plain stupid. I like to call myself a hopeless romantic. When I fall? I fall fast, and I fall hard. I give everything to my significant other– I hold nothing back. I have my insecurities and doubts, but I always believe if I just love enough, or give enough, or share enough, or ….. well, there are a million things I could put here. But I bet pretty much every woman (and even some men) has heard and/or said it all before. I always go in believing that my significant other will not only accept my giving, but return them in kind.
I’m usually wrong.
So, I suppose I am taking this recent heartbreak to re-assess what it is I really want out of life, love, and myself.
I am beginning a personal challenge– I am going to get myself healthy– both physically and emotionally– and I plan on documenting it every step of the way. I have Type 2 Diabetes, anxiety, depression, and weight issues. I am going to be taking on the treadmill, clean eating, and self-reflection. I do not know what is going to happen, or how it will affect me, my children, my family or my friends, but I suppose I will use this as my warning to them all? 😉
I hope that you will follow, encourage, and perhaps even join me in my challenge……… Until next time….